so it’s been like a month since i posted….
i got back from china a while ago, and i’ve grown really close with everyone and i miss them to death.
band camp went by in a blur and i got off my snobby high horse thinking i was way too cool for everyone in band and i’m making great friends i can’t believe i ignored last year.
EMC and i are not friends. we smile and wave at each other but, no we are not close, and we barely talk. oh well, i don’t think she ever really cared about me anyway.
first day of school went pretty decent, and i know some people in every class.
i fell playing capture the flag the thursday before school started and had to get stitches! you know what else? i missed the first two weeks of cross country 😦
the first two weeks were fun and then i started XC last week and hell kicked in. i’m still adjusting to having this much on my plate: XC every day from 3-5, band on tuesdays from 5-8:30 and on thursdays i skip XC and go to band till 5:30, and on wednesdays i have piano (i leave at 7 and get back around 9). it’s stressful, and it’s a lot of late late nights and feeling burned out. buts its great.
XC is going awesome! i made tons of new friends and the coach told me he thinks i have potential! and thats amazing because our team is like 2 in the state and he thinks i have potential….and i don’t think he was just saying that!
band it ok, but the teacher officially hates me. i don’t understand it….and it sucks because i need to get a leadership position next year and i get the feeling it’s going to be tough with all the new competition….
piano is insane because of PANEL ugh……all these crazy hard pieces. and for the baroque piece, they actually make you play the ENTIRE BAROQUE SUITE. yes. i know. as if famous masterpieces that are more than 8 pages of hand torture wasn’t enough!
my grandpa is not doing well. he’s had one round of chemo, and the next is starting i think in a few days. he’s constantly in pain, and it kills me that i can’t spend more time with him. i tempted to just say, screw homework, screw school, i’m hanging out with my laoye. he’s so brave and amazing and my hero. every time i ask, he says it doesn’t hurt! but i know…..every time he thinks nobody’s looking, his face just crumples in pain….and he can’t eat anything….and he’s losing weight so fast. i’m scared.
meanwhile, today was the day that ERC left. yesterday, we spent the entire day with her, just us 4. we took her to the beach for the last time (seattle’s got beaches 3 hours away, and you can’t go in the water anyway…). we took pictures. we laughed, we looked through old pictures, we spent hours reminiscing about the golden days when we didn’t care about our hair or makeup and boys were gross and it was just us, the 4 amigos, having crazy new adventures every day and it felt like nothing would ever change….and today, KS didn’t have a ride so she ran to my house and ERC came but AD couldn’t…..but we made the most of our last time together. we stretched that goodbye out so dang long it was literally 5 hours long! and when she drove away we chased that car down for half a mile screaming and crying and waving.
lots of changes. i wonder what will happen now.