Lunches Alone

So, I’ve been at a low point lately because even though my social life is more active than ever, I don’t feel like I have real friends.

SS the other day. It was lunchtime, and I had no plans. I took a leap of vulnerability and implied/asked to hang out with her. She obviously got the message, but mumbled something ambiguous, then literally JOGGED away from me, into the crowd. I went home. I dread lunchtimes nowadays.

I’ve just been feeling this sense of isolation from PD, like I’m a second-choice friend. She called me to apologize the other day.

And the truth is, those are the only friends that are even worth being upset about in the first place.

If I ever thought I had real friends, I was kidding myself.

Honestly, I’m just waiting to get away from high school and to start over, blank slate and new people. I’m so done here.

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