I mean, I don’t think I’m atheist at this point (I’m still procrastinating on that religion post – I think I’m too confused to write), but after reading (yes, it’s a Buzzfeed article; lay off), I found many of my thoughts basically written there, just more eloquently. This one in particular: “It’s true that inContinue reading “Atheism”


Relationships blowing up and developing and straining and fading. Complicated feelings. Long talks in dark cars with JH. Crawling up to AYl and kissing sideways as he lies down. His smiling eyes. “You’re distracting me,” cuddling on the couch. Saturn and Hercules. Mosquito bites. Borges. Packing and moving and screaming and crying. Phone calls andContinue reading “Snapshot”

When EMC and WB and I collide

Oh, goodness. I guess, if you’ve been following my influential relationships for the past few years, you would be well acquainted with the roller coaster that is EMC, and the rocky road that is WB. EMC dropped a huge text bomb on me, just as I had come to terms with the relationship. She acknowledged the troublesContinue reading “When EMC and WB and I collide”

“The Talk” with AYl

I went over to his house to watch a movie last night, and I refused to make out. My little way of testing whether he was just down for the hookup. After the movie, we kissed for a minute or two, before I wound up the guts and cut us short and asked, “Hey…what areContinue reading ““The Talk” with AYl”

An Update on the Relationships that Currently Matter to Me

WB. He was gone for three weeks, but we’re hanging out soon. With AYl in my life, I have no inhibitions about texting WB – like the way I text JH. JH. Such a nerd, but such a great guy. High school’s over, and I’m learning to say screw it with regards to social statusContinue reading “An Update on the Relationships that Currently Matter to Me”

An Update on the Relationships I’ve Forgotten About

I guess when people fade out of your life, sometimes it’s seamless. YM. We hung out solo a few times, and saw each other in group settings, and then both of our attendances to the group settings got spotty, and we kind of didn’t talk to each other in the group, anyway. I haven’t seenContinue reading “An Update on the Relationships I’ve Forgotten About”

AYl – Doubts

Well, I just slept over at AYl’s place again. Planned, this time. We went further than before. Each time, we go a bit further, so I’ve never felt uncomfortable, even though we’re probably moving faster than we should. Especially including the fact that two weeks ago, I’d never kissed a guy at all. A fewContinue reading “AYl – Doubts”

AYl Movie date

It’s just a date I want to remember. Cuddling in the back of his car among the blankets. Laughing over how very little of the movie we were watching. His arms encircling me as we star-gazed through the moonroof. Complete comfort. Him brushing back my hair as it fell back on him. Him teasing me by holdingContinue reading “AYl Movie date”


Fling? Boyfriend? I don’t know. But I’m definitely enjoying myself. What I love is that he doesn’t play games – we’re into each other, and there’s no playing it aloof or trying to be the one who cares less. We’re just hanging out as much as possible before I leave, I suppose. It’s a wonderfulContinue reading “AYl”