Feeling alone

I guess the sucky part of having an official boyfriend is the expectations. I was sick last night, and miserable, on the biggest party weekend of the year. He’d volunteered to stay in with me. I’d half-heartedly fought against it, and happily accepted. But on his part, his shows were superficial. He invited to hisContinue reading “Feeling alone”

I’m an idiot

WH just told me he likes me. Literally straightened my love life out less than a week ago. But more importantly, WH. I can’t believe what I put him through. I told him all my boy problems; I literally texted him a live stream of me trying to a let a guy down easily. I askedContinue reading “I’m an idiot”

The Horror That Comes When You Read Your Old Posts

My goodness. I actually hate my old self. 2011 me? Spoiled, sheltered, petty little freshman girl with no confidence and no empathy. She’s self-centered, and not even in a reflective sort of way – she’s wrapped up in the coming and goings of her mundane, boring¬†everyday life. Like, what I ate for breakfast, and theContinue reading “The Horror That Comes When You Read Your Old Posts”

JKm

My boyfriend. Is amazing. How can I ever be single again? Holding his hand and walking around, kissing under the blue sky and fall leaves in the glowing light, kissing through smiles, running my hands over his chest, touching noses… Just knowing that he’s completely into me, and I’m completely into him. It’s an amazingContinue reading “JKm”

Ambiguous Milestones

A first boyfriend. That’s a milestone, right? But it’s funny, because although JKm is sort of my first boyfriend, I’m not sure. And now that I think about it, it’s not even entirely because of AYl. Yes, AYl was my first kiss, and the first relationship I had that I defined as a ‘thing’. ButContinue reading “Ambiguous Milestones”

AYl Dream

I guess this needs some context. Went on a second date with JKm, and we spent the night cuddling. He mentioned the future a few times. After that, we started acting like a couple. No label yet. Seriously thinking about how to end things in the best way with AYl. What’s stopping me? I’m selfish.Continue reading “AYl Dream”

Oh, by the way, JKm

JKm. Quick recap, he was the friend of this sophomore with really questionable intentions (texting me at 2am,¬†hey, are you free? is so not my thing). I remember vaguely meeting him at the first sports part of the year – I was on the couch, talking to the aforementioned friend, and he introduced me reallyContinue reading “Oh, by the way, JKm”