A first boyfriend. That’s a milestone, right?
But it’s funny, because although JKm is sort of my first boyfriend, I’m not sure.
And now that I think about it, it’s not even entirely because of AYl. Yes, AYl was my first kiss, and the first relationship I had that I defined as a ‘thing’.
But before the ‘thing’, my love life was defined by a series pseudo-relationships – deep connections minus the physical. Butterflies without contact. Before AYl was WB, and before WB was KD, and before KD was WB again. We texted, we hung out, we told each other everything. And when we had our pseudo-breakup, it hurt just as much.
By AYl, I was already emotionally mature when it came to relationships.
So my first boyfriend? It doesn’t feel like my first time.