On Feeling Alone

There are so many ways to have friends. There’s the friend group. This is something I have never had, because I never settled. One, I’ve never thrived in a group social setting. Two, I love in-depth conversations with interesting people one-on-one. And three, I always wanted to curate a specific group of vastly diverse people,Continue reading “On Feeling Alone”

On Revising the Past

Relevant to my recent reflections two posts ago. It doesn’t seem right to revise an old text severely, as if trying to obliterate it, hiding the evidence that one had to go there to get here. It is rather in the feminist mode to let one’s changes of mind, and the processes of change, standContinue reading “On Revising the Past”

Field Notes from a Jewish Birthday Party

CaseworkerDoesn’t get attached to her cases because she knows she wouldn’t last Do what you can to make one family’s life better in that moment, and then move on to the next Hard to feel sympathy for the parents – again, won’t last Learned from the kids Loves it Burns out Prosciutto Baguette Quinoa FrittataContinue reading “Field Notes from a Jewish Birthday Party”

On AM

3/28/16, 7:03pm, notes from iPhone Me and philosophical talks: the more I see of other families, the more I realize that I was raised in a very non-intellectual environment. Both my parents are very concrete people, and very emotional people in that there are no theoretical debates – no debates at all, actually – onlyContinue reading “On AM”

Songs and Feeling Wisps

I go through intense phases of song obsessions, which is absolutely obnoxious for every around me, but has the interesting side effect of generating intense feelings of certain memories or vibes from the period in my life in which I was obsessed. I thought it’d be interesting to chronicle. Bitter Water, by the Oh Hellos:Continue reading “Songs and Feeling Wisps”

Fucking like my picture please

Changing my Facebook profile picture entails the Google search “how to change a profile picture” hours of deciding between variations of barely¬†different crops of the same picture heart palpitations dropping things on the floor an inability focus on work leaving the Facebook tab open and internally thanking each like as they¬†come in Clearly my socialContinue reading “Fucking like my picture please”

When JKm Knows Me

WH shook things up this morning (again – details later), and I decided to go to JKm for advice. I’d never before, mostly because he’s so non-confrontational I was skeptical he would give advice, and also because I didn’t think he’d want to know about my problems with WH. And he surprised me by reallyContinue reading “When JKm Knows Me”

Random Thoughts during Ethno

Because there’s nothing like a discussion about a topic you’re interested in to get your mind wandering to completely unrelated thoughts. Pain is necessary for people to feel empathy. Empathy cannot exist without the empathizer knowing the feeling. Empathy cannot exist if there is nothing to empathize with. Thus, pain is necessary for people toContinue reading “Random Thoughts during Ethno”