tldr; music is 3d

currently: music sounds really, really good still; lights have a larger glow than normal, and things pulsate gently if I really focus on them

a (not so) quick rundown of today:

an odd feeling of a need to stretch in the chest, a slight dizziness

the bathroom lock pulsating, then the ceiling pulsating, then the ceiling dots beginning to form swirling patterns and the 3d-ness of the ceiling began to give way

the ceiling, with 3d hairs floating down and tiny dots

putting hands over my face to block out all light and staring, wide-eyed and unblinking, at the streaming ebbing black lines and red flowing pictures I saw

going up the stairs each echoing step went straight down; accompanied by a tangible visual of the vibrations shooting out of the soles of my feet in a flash of light a la learning to draw 3d boxes in the 3rd grade

the floor and pulsating squares, pulsating sausage fat, two layers

listening to music, MUSIC, music in HEADPHONES and absolutely leaving the world right there

floating in the kelp, like a horizontal 3d stick figure on a keychain

my hair, floating out and emanating from my head in the suspended air

floating and bringing JH in, floating with me and his voice came and we shared the experience

and I felt the need to bring everyone in so I called RK and YM

then joe popped in and dan and I was so happy I could share it with them too and I lay on the floor so that we could float on the same level

somehow it was ok for people to leave if I let them go, but having them walk away from me was upsetting

and then I wanted AF to come and vibe with us I felt he would enjoy it so much

and then I wanted JKm to come but snapped out of it enough to say otherwise

then AM came and I was so happy I could share it with him too although it frustrated me that he didn’t seem to be floating with me but then music MUSIC came

and bohemian rhapsody blew my mind playing in slow motion with trails everywhere

and another song was soaring and sounds were pearls bouncing on the water and soaring up from it and when I closed my eyes sounds flew at me in 3d from all directions, rapidly changing

currently uncontrollably nodding my head to the beat I’m listening to

everything was so beautiful so beautiful and I wanted to share it with everyone and all sounds were so heartbreakingly beautiful

truly understanding how it felt to be wide-eyed and open-mouthed with wonder so visceral and so real that I could not for the life of me shut either

or more that it would be a crime to repress that which was so beautiful

and I was floating and I wanted people to float with me and I was convinced that if I took videos, the videos would show what I was currently seeing

and then MS said he was going for a walk and I wanted to come but I went to the bathroom first and the floor was just pulsating squares and I got so distracted that I had to tear myself off the toilet

and then I felt this insane urge to get in the shower with all my clothes on but people pulled me away

and then I went back on MH’s bed and sat there for apparently a long time just floating and staring at the ceiling

and I saw a picture of grass and I didn’t even know it was grass – they looked like tiki men; I had to ask what the picture was of and when they said it was grass I didn’t believe but indeed it was

and I saw a picture of stars and it was so beautiful – they were pulsating and growing brighter and brighter and then ebbing away, back and forth back and forth and the small stars were rushing around the larger ones

and then someone gave me an orange and it was so beautiful and delicious and it reminded me of the oranges of my childhood that were perfectly dry on the pith and sweet and juicy on the inside and although this one didn’t taste quite sweet enough it still was the best orange I had ever encountered just because of what it symbolized

and then I thought of JKm while listening to bon iver and I thought that I had grown frustrated with him and that he was telling me god damn turn around you’re my a team and then I thought maybe I was yelling that at him but it was bittersweet because I knew he couldn’t

and then MS came back and took me to the art building and on the way there I played snarky puppy and couldn’t hear anything else and MS was such a caricature of a person and the music was so ridiculously comical I felt like a secret sky and he was a cool cat and we were just trooping around the campus

and I was eating a banana but it was strangely tasteless and interestingly mushy to my mouth but I ate it anyway because it felt like nothing

and we finally got the the art building and in the stairwell it was so beautiful that I thought of JKm again and realized I just wanted to share this with him as well and that all our problems would have been fixed if we could but that he was gone and that the reason we couldn’t share this was the very reason I had to let him go in the end

and music had so many layers; music was 3d and I could viscerally feel every single layer of sound

and we looked at art and it took me a while to realize the the words were written in shadows and I wasn’t sure if the universe had purposely done that to confuse because everything was in two layers anyway

and there was one picture dark small male figuring in a town and when I stared it the men side-stepped towards me very coolly as cool as a cucumber and I dug it

and then we stood in the stairwell and I saw a carrot on the wall and then I got really into classical music – beethoven e major sonata and f-sharp major sonata and schubert b-flat major sonata and debussy reflets dans la lune because I was convinced that if I focused in on any art at that moment I would truly figure it out and be able to play it better than ever before

and then we walked to MS’s dorm and I jammed and listened to frank ocean and bon iver’s visual album was insanely fascinating and the holocene video was just like the afterglow of a trip where everything was just so beautiful you had to linger on it and just gaze at every detail, lying on the floor and looking up, up; and the minnesota paint video was perfect, perfect, fascinating

and then we cooked and watched a crazy animation movie about dementia and the visuals were amazing and I just stared in amazement

and then we watched the debate and I was just loose and open

but the tightness was still in my chest and I put my legs in the air and breathed really far in and out and that helped a little but I ended up just hugging a bean bag

and then we walked around at night and the blu lights glowed to much and looked slightly fractal-like, and street lights had a beautiful rainbow aura

and the green light reflecting in a puddle cast a glow on the streets that looked like gold-plated ness everywhere and I liked to look at that

and shadows on the floor created a cartoon-like cross hatch pattern that moved

and then we played piano and jammed and we got really into the chord progression I think it was CM to Gm to f-sharp M to b-flat major

and then MS taught me a song and I felt the need to perfect it and I did and played scales were so satisfying and beautiful

and then I hopped on a shuttle and went back to the dorm and chilled and looked at psychedelic pictures and had good vibes with DW and CM and JV

and that was that


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