journal #6 12/30/16

12/30/16, 11:59pm, brother E’s apartment in l– —– left k–‘s house this morning and biked into a light drizzle around 10am. it was a smooth ride down a very mundane avenue; my attention was unfocused until we hit the coast and its beautiful water. we stopped spontaneously to pose in front of some gorgeous murals […]

journal #3, 12/28/16

journal #3 12/28/16 12/28/16, 11:13pm, JH’s apartment biked 31 miles today of beautiful subtlety sloping hills. I’m beginning to trust my bike more, not the least because we happened upon a bike shop in the morning and had the brakes and rack tidied up. the man was quietly friendly, and gave us tips about hike […]

acid trip journal

[on computer] tennyson’s too long I can hear every detail, like the door squeaks are visceral, and putting in headphones is kind of like there’s music and there is nothing else and there’s never been anything else And it’s difficult to explain but there’s just a sort of depth to the music that perhaps is […]

more thoughts on romantic attraction

if I am specifically romantically attracted to ease, does that explain all my past stumbling? I think I require a deliberate show of intentional affection. And does the type of ease I am attracted to show that in a way I am uncomfortable with? WB and our tumultuous, uncertain friendship. JS now and my questioning […]