I find myself, in trying to have empathy for other larger things, being cynical of other “smaller” struggles. For example, the Boston Marathon bombing — that’s a legitimate tragedy. And while it’s nowhere near the mass scale of what’s happening in Syria, or Sudan, that doesn’t make the pain from this American loss any less real than the pain elsewhere. I need to work on not discounting this pain. I need to have empathy for all tragedies, rather than discount those that are less severe or more white.
To be idealistic is to be trusting
To be idealistic is to relinquish responsibility of safety outwards
Pragmatists are willing to be the bad guy, to take on that responsibility of fault for safety’s sake
Idealists push that responsibility away
I think I want to be an idealist
I can be completely trusting, let things fall to shit because of others
Is it enough to know that you are doing your best?
It’s outcome vs the driving forcesand as a nihilist, the outcome is unimportant, as all outcomes are neither good nor bad
I choose to be idealist
leaving periods of my sentences leave thoughts half-formed, left in snatches
I suppose it’s ok as long as I learn to finish those thoughts as well