talked for two hours about sad things in a happy way he kissed me with my mouth full of popcorners
but here I am! MH and I have been weird this semester — shifting friend groups and different schedules, maybe. But also silence that is more deliberate omission than secret. Experiences matter to me, and otherwise there must be words. We have neither, really, although we do have the odd gesture of care — ButContinue reading “it’s been a while since I’ve been truly bothered”
MS sends an empty text under the façade of making plans then doesn’t respond when you actually make plans I don’t need this miss me with this shit please and thank you and good night
– exuberant bodies
is it a slight distance? why do I feel the need to retaliate with a receding? why do I feel the need to fight with a clinging? why do I not know if this is real at all?
Today, I gave advice strongly, in the way that I do and expect people to push back on. HJ got angry in his passive, slightly agitated way, which I’d only seen once, and it hadn’t been at me. That irritated tone clung to me long after he’d brushed it aside and left. I’m coming toContinue reading “a conflict”
I didn’t think much of it in the moment. I’d spent the afternoon reeling in two distinct housing crises as he watched and offered sympathies. We were about to leave; he’d just finished changing. This is the video: it opens up sideways. It fumbles until it’s right side up, trained on HJ, still a littleContinue reading “a video of HJ”