On Crying at Movies

I’d thought that crying at movies was overly emotional, a transparent grasp for attention, reserved for people like (gasp) my mom. But in the onslaught of movies I’ve thrown myself into the past few weeks in project Expand My Worldview and Become More Cultured And Interesting, I’ve cried at every single one. Why? I’ve realizedContinue reading “On Crying at Movies”

Growing Up and Family

Fam left today after a mediocre road trip around my college area. My mother and I had a huge fight after I realized that I regressed every time I talked to her – that’s for another post. The past week consisted of my brother sullenly listening to an audiobook while I dragged my mother all overContinue reading “Growing Up and Family”

Happy New Year’s, fuckers.

I cracked. I thought I could do it. Hold it in, smile, do as she said, and make it unscathed through this one month, after which I won’t have to see her for a year. I couldn’t. I can’t. Such a stupid trigger. Nothing, really. We egged each other on, and soon enough, the torrentContinue reading “Happy New Year’s, fuckers.”

Done

My grandpa died two days ago. On Tuesday. I wish that I’d written this that day, to capture what it felt like. But I didn’t, so this, this two days later perspective, will be the one forever captured on the internet. I can’t write how I felt, but I can write what happened. That morning, beforeContinue reading “Done”

IJournals: 41 (8/5)

    I’m on the plane going from TVC to Chicago. But let me back up. This morning was sweet and sad. I walked over to stone early to say goodbye to the piano family. I was quiet and it was sad, but we were al trying to be cheerful and joke around. I leftContinue reading “IJournals: 41 (8/5)”

IJournals: 40 (8/5)

Yesterday was the last full day. The cabin went to Bud’s for breakfast, and we ran straight to the awards ceremony where I got a Fine Arts Award! Then I packed. Friend MK was already crying, and I wasn’t, but when I hit the cabin and saw all the suitcases and everyone packing, I tearedContinue reading “IJournals: 40 (8/5)”

IJournals: 39 (8/3)

Today was amazing and emotional and crazy. I obviously didn’t practice. We sat in the library and watched Mulan. My accompanying class got Mofro. I know the teacher was trying to be nice, but I really just wanted to spend time with the piano family before everyone leaves. I had lunch with them, then wentContinue reading “IJournals: 39 (8/3)”

nightmare or dream?

that dream in my previously post? i went and looked up what it might mean. here what i got. Bicycle To dream that you are riding a bicycle signifies your desires to attain a balance in your life. You need to balance work and pleasure in order to succeed in your current undertakings. If youContinue reading “nightmare or dream?”

band festival, deep thoughts and nightmares (3/8 – 3/10)

thursday nothing really happened. 1 was fun with friend PS. 3 was boring. 5 was boring. in track we started a new team warmup, instead of each squad or separate event warm up. it took like an hour to set up, I’m next to no friends, and it doesn’t even warm you up sufficiently. thenContinue reading “band festival, deep thoughts and nightmares (3/8 – 3/10)”