08/15/17, 8:25am

dream I’m in a helicopter or some sort of flying device with my brother next to me and my father and some other man across from me. We’re strapped in with seatbelts, hunched with the bad posture of awkwardness. We’re chatting uncomfortably. It becomes clear that Dad had been gone a while and we hadn’tContinue reading “08/15/17, 8:25am”

My Mother

My mother and I have never had a good relationship. I think it mostly stems from our differences, and her lack of ability to understand that others are not like her. Emotions cloud her view, her judgement, and her thoughts. I didn’t cook dinner before she got home? It means I don’t love her. Never mindContinue reading “My Mother”

Bye, Dad

My dad’s leaving today – I didn’t think I would care, really. For as long as I can remember, I was absolutely stoked about this. And I still am, really. I’m so happy that he’s finally going to be happy. That, I cannot express enough. But it feels so odd. It’s not like the lastContinue reading “Bye, Dad”

Wills and shit

So, don’t know if I’ve mentioned this, but my Dad’s been planning on leaving and fulfilling his dream of traveling the world and visiting his family, whom he has seen for years. This, I am all for. I am stoked for him. I can’t wait. But before he leaves, we’ve been dealing with the awkwardContinue reading “Wills and shit”

The calm after the storm

When my parents fight, us kids have learned to just go about with our daily lives. Business as usual, with a little background chatter. I mean, if we were so affected that we cried every time they fight, we would literally get nothing done, as their fights often escalate or relight throughout the day. SomeContinue reading “The calm after the storm”

parents fighting

I hate my dad. I don’t know  what’s going on, or how it started, but from my room right now on a cloudy Saturday morning, I hear my parents, outside, my dad screaming for the entire neighborhood to hear, at my mom. He’s calling her a fucking asshole whore. He’s telling her to leave ‘his’Continue reading “parents fighting”

bad day yesterday

ok, so i decided to cut some food out from my school lunch. bad idea. you have no idea how horrible i felt yesterday….during track, my head and stomach was pounding and i felt like fainting the entire time. file under NEVER AGAIN. but the rest of the time went well. i did ok onContinue reading “bad day yesterday”

cruising (2/3 – 2/4)

so life is going pretty good right now. i know that when you act happy, people are drawn to you and you become real-happy (like fake it till you make it) but tons of the time i just don’t feel like acting happy when i really feel like crap. but turns out its true, andContinue reading “cruising (2/3 – 2/4)”

church girls sleepover

…it was pretty fun. before from piano i went to go shopping with my mom. i bought new PJ pants at gap for like 6 bucks. i don’t enjoy shopping with my mom so much anymore, because she is so set on spending all the money she makes. i am set on saving money soContinue reading “church girls sleepover”

parents fighting

i woke up this morning to the sound of my dad trying to get my mom to sign some document for our lawyer. and that progressed into a screaming, accusing fight, in which my dad says that she is always harassing him by not signing these documents right. i don’t know, but isn’t it ironicContinue reading “parents fighting”