a quiet walk back in the first snow of the year

there is something about snow that takes me back to last year this time last year, I had WH and JKm and I had this coat and this breath of cold air and these yellow street lights these I still have. there exist those I no longer have but I did not have these white leatherContinue reading “a quiet walk back in the first snow of the year”

a timeline of the good things

the first night he was the tall friend of a guy and I noticed and that was that the real first night he was the tall guy who I semi knew and who I stuck with when the party died “you’re chill as fuck! let’s exchange numbers?” the club going and not really expecting anythingContinue reading “a timeline of the good things”

These are pathetic problems

Running the event that we spent all year planning, somewhat bonding with the team, it was fun. But what bothered me is that none of my friends came. I have no friends to automatically hang out with. Sure, I get invited to things. But I don’t want to be invited. I want to be immediatelyContinue reading “These are pathetic problems”

Dream

God – a horrible dream that speaks to my friendship issues right now. I’m visiting PD at her college. I say some offensive, like being surprised that she’s a legacy to the school (she’s not actually in real life, but she was in this dream), and somehow implying that that was why she’d gotten in.Continue reading “Dream”

On AM

3/28/16, 7:03pm, notes from iPhone Me and philosophical talks: the more I see of other families, the more I realize that I was raised in a very non-intellectual environment. Both my parents are very concrete people, and very emotional people in that there are no theoretical debates – no debates at all, actually – onlyContinue reading “On AM”

I Eeked Out A Portrait of ES

I probably haven’t mentioned ES on here at all, because she’s a bit removed from the rest of the people I know here, although she’s still among my four closest friends. I hung out with her tonight, and I think I can finally start to say I am beginning to wrap my head around her.Continue reading “I Eeked Out A Portrait of ES”

iPhone Notes: Snippets from the Plane Ride Home

Fading street lights. Lights being intermittently obscured by buildings, trees. Christmas lights. Why is the city twinkling? Whoa! WhoOOOAAAh… A baby giggles as the plane lands roughly. Atlanta, Georgia. Almost home. The toddler in front of my pops over the seat and peers at me. “Hi!” I giggle. She giggles right on back.

Saying Goodbye to JKm

Finals are over, the dorm is packed, and I leave via public transportation (fingers crossed I end up in the right state) in two hours. The last few days have been amazing. I’m reminded how I need to take time to truly relax – it’s just been quality time. Listening to a symphony with WH.Continue reading “Saying Goodbye to JKm”

Thanksgiving with another family

I’m at AM’s house for Thanksgiving, and it was the best decision I could have possibly made. His family is beautiful. They have such a great relationship; it’s evident in every aspect. Their home is covered in family photos; their decorations are all family crafts. They eat together, hike together, watch TV together. And watchingContinue reading “Thanksgiving with another family”

The Three Categories of Friends

Yes, this article is about adult friendships and I don’t really consider myself an adult, but I still found these words relevant to my life: By middle-age, people have likely accumulated many friends from different jobs, different cities, and different activities, who don’t know each other at all. These friendships fall into three categories: active,Continue reading “The Three Categories of Friends”