*Sigh* Can’t deny it. I liked him. And I still like him. I said it. But it’s way too late, and he’s moved on, and it’s not like anything actually could have realistically come of it. I keep thinking that he does these little things for me, like he did when he liked me, but […]
Also, can I just say that I absolutely love friend ML? Like, legitly.
I just talked to Friend ML and saw his face and actually talked for the first time in almost a month. I just messaged him and literally the next second, he called. I swear I miss him so much…It’s just nice to have a solid friend I can literally always, always count on; no insecurities, no […]
Can I just take a moment to acknowledge what a great day I just had? It wasn’t a special day. It was really quite average. But it was such a good day. 1. It was productive. I got up early, did homework, finished it. Practiced piano and got a whole solid half page of a […]
You know what I realized? My friends…My true friends, the ones that I trust with my life and my thoughts and my secrets and my dreams….they live thousands and thousands of miles away. Hours of transportation. It’s likely that I will not see them in person for a long time, if ever. About a week […]
So it was Friend ML’s birthday last week. I sent him a card and it was pretty awesome. That’s about all I got.
Just kidding! We finally got a chance to chat on Wednesday, and today we finally got to talk. Like, actually talk. Like, over Skype. It was fun and he met my mom…except I’ve told my mom how he reminds me of my brother, and she was all to ready to bring that up…hello awkward reminders […]
Why are Friend ML and I growing apart? It’s only been a month. We’ve run out of things to talk about. It makes me sad.
So I just realized that every time I talk to Friend ML, I cannot stop smiling. It’s literally uncontrollable. A message from him pops up, and my face just busts out a huge, dopey smile. It’s a good feeling.
I honestly don’t know how I didn’t see this coming. Reading through all my ‘IJournals’….um, it was obvious. But here’s my defense. Friend ML is nice to everyone. And he does random acts of kindness for everyone. And he sort of didn’t do that for me. Like, he wouldn’t hug me at random times although everyone else did. But […]