You’ve been extremely good, a little lonely, content with your friends, feeling alienated from close friends, feeling alienated from fading friends, feeling like a second-class friend, suddenly ready to cut people out, exceedingly comfortable with the people you love, willing to reach out to people you’ve looked over, unsure if this was out of desperation,Continue reading “where have I been?”
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07/25/17, 8:10pm
Sure, it was you who did the thing. It’s a hassle in some regions more than others, but somehow it was relatively quick, a trip to L.L. Bean on the way home; you were going anyway to buy a sleeping bag, size small. The mouth fit smoothly into your pencil box. Your bike chain isContinue reading “07/25/17, 8:10pm”
07/25/17, 2:48am
you have made progress! this progress is painful, but it is progress. you can not deny what you felt. you could not keep going that way. that was not an undesirable path, it was an impossible path. you could not keep going that way. you can not change what he can give. this is progress.Continue reading “07/25/17, 2:48am”
07/25/17, 1:19am
my will wasn’t broken my will is what drives me to the breaking point why would it give up now? I should know.
07/24/17, 12:47am
This hurts because I feel there’s still more here. It’s not like the others — where I tried until there was nothing left. Here, I tried until I broke. Remember: you broke. It broke you. No gold is worth that. Get your past tense together, you.
07/23/17, 1:13am
An ode to the handshake that will never happen: Some shimmy and slap and clap and twist. Our friendship, it was never so ebullient. Instead, we slyly felt for the wenis — the wenis! imagine that! — and clasped pinkies; we giggled the closed-mouthed smirks of comrades on a makeshift raft of logs we’d gathered,Continue reading “07/23/17, 1:13am”
07/23/17, 1:00am
it was us against the world when did it become you against me? when did it become us against ourselves?
07/23/17, 12:21am
I truly cannot stand his kindness, his touch, his being. I do not need reminders of what is gone.
07/23/17, 12:15am
Break up nights always end in wisps: words dwindling to single phrases kneading the silence and folding back into it; responses delayed by worlds of thoughts before spoken quietly, simply, courageously; never are we as vulnerable and open as we are at the end of something real.
07/23/17, 12:12am
For my education — what are you thinking? I’m trying to figure out why I’m not crying. I’m trying to figure out how I got myself here. And for my education, what are you thinking? I’m trying to figure out how much to trust people.