where have I been?

You’ve been extremely good, a little lonely, content with your friends, feeling alienated from close friends, feeling alienated from fading friends, feeling like a second-class friend, suddenly ready to cut people out, exceedingly comfortable with the people you love, willing to reach out to people you’ve looked over, unsure if this was out of desperation,Continue reading “where have I been?”

07/25/17, 8:10pm

Sure, it was you who did the thing. It’s a hassle in some regions more than others, but somehow it was relatively quick, a trip to L.L. Bean on the way home; you were going anyway to buy a sleeping bag, size small. The mouth fit smoothly into your pencil box. Your bike chain isContinue reading “07/25/17, 8:10pm”

07/25/17, 2:48am

you have made progress! this progress is painful, but it is progress. you can not deny what you felt. you could not keep going that way. that was not an undesirable path, it was an impossible path. you could not keep going that way. you can not change what he can give. this is progress.Continue reading “07/25/17, 2:48am”

07/23/17, 1:13am

An ode to the handshake that will never happen: Some shimmy and slap and clap and twist. Our friendship, it was never so ebullient. Instead, we slyly felt for the wenis — the wenis! imagine that! — and clasped pinkies; we giggled the closed-mouthed smirks of comrades on a makeshift raft of logs we’d gathered,Continue reading “07/23/17, 1:13am”