I didn’t think much of it in the moment. I’d spent the afternoon reeling in two distinct housing crises as he watched and offered sympathies. We were about to leave; he’d just finished changing. This is the video: it opens up sideways. It fumbles until it’s right side up, trained on HJ, still a little […]
Tag Archives: Guys
that conversation
Why are you smiling like that? Oh, just every time you look up at me it’s hilarious. But you also just smile when your eyes are closed. You smile in your sleep. Well, with my freshman year crush next to me, how could I not? Wait, what? I was your freshman year crush? Oh, yeah. Wow. Yeah. […]
Last night, we held hands, we laughed, we kissed, we looked at each other, and I said: You’re a really good person, you know that? And it was far more vulnerable than if I had said something so over the top that it couldn’t possibly have weight. I love you. I love you only holds weight when it […]
HJ and events
HJ and I were sitting on the floor of his dorm the other night, talking pointlessly to fill the two hours we had, when the topic of dating came up. He’d realized, he told me, that a lot of his dating had been interview-like for far too long, and after he’d noticed that, they’d always […]
a quick memory, because I know I’ll enjoy this in the future
we’re standing on the first floor of my dorm; I’m walking him to the door. I’ve stopped on the second to last step of the stairs; we kiss sweetly, the same height thanks to the steps. there’s a slight lull as he’s about to leave and my lips part a little as my eyes smile; […]
HJ
nothing artistic or reflective this time, which, I will say, means this is something right. the best relationships are the ones that you don’t need to constantly reflect on and think through (hence, the general down mood of all the posts on here). but! a somewhat significant event, and so, I compel myself to write […]
well, this sucks
I miss JKm I miss WB nothing like watching sappy pop music videos to make you nostalgic and achey and lovesick actually, though.
more thoughts on romantic attraction
if I am specifically romantically attracted to ease, does that explain all my past stumbling? I think I require a deliberate show of intentional affection. And does the type of ease I am attracted to show that in a way I am uncomfortable with? WB and our tumultuous, uncertain friendship. JS now and my questioning […]
a note on HJ
I think plenty of people who have an impression on me pass through my life without my writing about it on here. I thought I’d catch one of those in my net today — HJ is an awesome dude who I’ve always wanted to get to know better, and at the beginning on this semester, […]
putting two and two together
and this should absolutely be the last post I make obsessing over this, although it will probably not be. let’s see: I’ve been ignoring the signs because I wanted him to like my personality, and I wanted to believe that someone like him could be interested in someone like me. but really, it’s honestly pretty […]
