If I Was Honest About Who I’ve Had A Crush On

FRESHMAN V. Planning my outfits around the days that I would see him. So coyly ignoring him in class – s much that I think he thought I disliked him. Assuming that he liked me when he messaged me on Facebook just to chat. Talking loudly, acting confused about a math problem that I clearly […]

Ambiguous Milestones

A first boyfriend. That’s a milestone, right? But it’s funny, because although JKm is sort of my first boyfriend, I’m not sure. And now that I think about it, it’s not even entirely because of AYl. Yes, AYl was my first kiss, and the first relationship I had that I defined as a ‘thing’. But […]

An Update on the Relationships I’ve Forgotten About

I guess when people fade out of your life, sometimes it’s seamless. YM. We hung out solo a few times, and saw each other in group settings, and then both of our attendances to the group settings got spotty, and we kind of didn’t talk to each other in the group, anyway. I haven’t seen […]

An Honest Inventory of My Friendships

Sooo I talked to KS for the first time in…4 years? Ever? Not sure. It was such a feel good moment, but not in the same new-friend-rush as with WB. It was the old friend; re-bonding, with an emphasis on the ‘re’. She’s got a darker life than I thought – financial and emotional problems, […]

Snapshot

Pentatonix Christmas songs. O Come, O Come, Emmanuel. Aspiring to my sodding take on Carol of the Bells. Too much Buzzfeed. Comforting AD about Pakistan. Burnt cookies from EMC. No friends. Where to go at lunch? Empty. Off-campus. Actually talking to ED. Getting ignored by WB and being absolutely sick of it. Shooting stars with […]

On my social life

Now, by the look of my recent-ish posts, one might think that I’ve become skilled in social interactions. I haven’t. I really haven’t. I spent the entire week recording myself on the piano for audition tapes, writing essays, and procrastinating. My only interactions were a random run on Saturday with MH and MB, a hike […]