other than that I just hung out with three people, one of which is a friend, and the other two of which are previous ‘co-workers’ who are really quite amazing and sweet, witty and confident and wonderful, and yet I can tell that there’s a distance between us, that I cannot be friends with them. […]
Running the event that we spent all year planning, somewhat bonding with the team, it was fun. But what bothered me is that none of my friends came. I have no friends to automatically hang out with. Sure, I get invited to things. But I don’t want to be invited. I want to be immediately […]
I think I’m becoming that friend that everyone comes to individually for advice and emotional support because they know I’ll be there for them, and they know I won’t tell. And yet, there is no obligation to keep me looped into group activities. Basically, I’m their bitch.
God – a horrible dream that speaks to my friendship issues right now. I’m visiting PD at her college. I say some offensive, like being surprised that she’s a legacy to the school (she’s not actually in real life, but she was in this dream), and somehow implying that that was why she’d gotten in. […]
I guess the sucky part of having an official boyfriend is the expectations. I was sick last night, and miserable, on the biggest party weekend of the year. He’d volunteered to stay in with me. I’d half-heartedly fought against it, and happily accepted. But on his part, his shows were superficial. He invited to his […]
My brothers have never *really* been a huge part of my daily life. We’re not a crazy-tight family (not that we hate each other, but day-to-day, we do our own thing). K left for college a month back. That went without us really feeling much of a change. E left for college yesterday. Even that […]