you are feeling a little down

and suddenly everything is less shiny RK is late to meeting you in the park and you think about how your friendship lately has been one-sided, how maybe a lot of your friendships are one-sided. You haven’t made friends here. You blame it on the city; the city is tough. RK says it’s the real […]

the coming and going of civilization

As your friendship with AM slowly crumbles even after you’ve both identified the problem and actively work to hold each other up As your long-distance conversation with JH dwindles to a reluctant phone call and you haven’t sent each other music in forever As you sit on a park bench and sigh and RK lets […]

tldr; music is 3d

currently: music sounds really, really good still; lights have a larger glow than normal, and things pulsate gently if I really focus on them a (not so) quick rundown of today: an odd feeling of a need to stretch in the chest, a slight dizziness the bathroom lock pulsating, then the ceiling pulsating, then the […]

A list of friendships I am truly hopeful for

AM. The OG homie. The brother. Close to a fault. Simultaneous overdone comfort and borderline conflict. Worried about the roommate situation. YM. International student friend. Click on humor, on interests, and on deep issues. Self-effacing. Genuinely love her company. Possibly a weekly lunch? SF. Complex, interesting, likable, extroverted. I feel insecure in this one, like […]

Boyz and Parties

So I spelled ‘boys’ with a ‘z’, to emphasize teenage-ness. Yes, there’s a new boy in town. He will be known as PGF/Crush AM, and he is a junior (do I have an older guy problem?). He is in my math class. Thank the stars that my inexperienced teacher finally gave us a seating chart. […]

2nd track meet, 1st distance race

So this week was our first home meet (yay!), and also my first distance race EVER (double yay!). I’m totally mature. It went well. I decided to tempo it instead of actually racing, just so I could get the feel of distance. I ran the 800. I’m not going to lie, though, I was pretty […]