FRESHMAN V. Planning my outfits around the days that I would see him. So coyly ignoring him in class – s much that I think he thought I disliked him. Assuming that he liked me when he messaged me on Facebook just to chat. Talking loudly, acting confused about a math problem that I clearlyContinue reading “If I Was Honest About Who I’ve Had A Crush On”
of school! CP brought me lunch. In a brown bag. With a smiley face and my name on it. Made with love, from his mom. SO GREAT. Classes went pretty well, all around. I have friends in my classes that I haven’t had classes with since elementary school – we squealed about that just aContinue reading “1st day”
Went to a band party last night. I was debating whether to go or not (college sample lessons next week!), but I went – I’m ashamed to say that had WB not been there, I may have swung the other way. Got there and jumped in the jacuzzi, which filled up in a few minutes.Continue reading “Band Party”
Midnight on Thursday – or Friday. The in between. I finish the essay. Knowing I could count on him, I send it to SNK C. Dependable SNK C reads it until 1 am, edits it, told me how great it was, and gave constructive criticism. SNK C has become one of my close friends –Continue reading “BTW, SNK C”
Man oh man. I had a feeling. I took a baseball bat and hit that thought out of the universe because I didn’t want it to be true. It came back. SNK C likes me. YM implied it for a long time, and SNK C went from being nice all the time to teasing me,Continue reading “What a mess.”
‘Twas the weekend before finals week, and all the asians were studying. True story. I went to SNK C’s for the study session. Remember him? Oh, yeah. Yeah. I love that guy. He’s genuinely kind, easy-going, and always tries to make things easy for others. He’s into music. What’s not to like? I can talkContinue reading “Studying with Asians”
Well. After going through random periods of ups and downs, confidence and absolute discouragement, today was the day of the band banquet. First of all, I almost didn’t go at all. I simply didn’t want to spend a night of awkwardness with people I barely knew. That was extremely idiotic, though, because I had alreadyContinue reading “Re-Entering Band”
so i had sort of a great week yolo is awesome. the whole week i’ve been having sooo much fun…spanish is always great. in band, we have been doing absolutely NOTHING, so one day after sitting and listening to awkward conversation with SNK C and SNK R, i grabbed this ball and started a gameContinue reading “chocolate cake”
busy busy weekend for me!
i went friday night to church, which was fun. on saturday we got up bright and early, drove up and watched my cousin CJ graduate from her ridiculously expensive boarding school! it was long. and….long. it was really nice though. we took so many pictures me and CJ were joking about our mouths twitching…
and guess what? i saw SNK C there! surprise, huh? didn’t say anything to him, and i don’t think he noticed me.
my uncle kept commented on what a ‘lovely young lady i’m growing up to be.’ how skinny i was. my aunt thinks i should be a model/actress and keeps on hounding me about it. whhhaaat??? apparently, in their world, the only thing you need to be an actor is a pretty face and decent body. again, whhhaaattt? hahaha
we hung out in her dorm, then we went to their hotel and hung out there. then we went out to dinner. we ate food.
its nice because before i was always the annoying little tag-along, but now i can see i’m not.
got home super late and dragged myself up to bed and fell right asleep. i always do.
on sunday i skipped church and practiced piano/started my essay final. fun fun.
the recital was way too long, but i got to see friend MC! we sat next to each other and caught up and it was like we were never apart….i miss her.
i went straight to my friend’s house to go to the band banquet. it was friend EMC, JS, and KM. i allowed them to do my makeup. they managed to cake on an illegal amount of eyeliner to form a flicked out-corner thing, then stuck a bow in my hair. A BOW. i barely deem to brush my hair on good days…oh well. i looked girly.
got to the banquet, and i absolutely hate LT. she sucks. here’s the run down. she’s going to be a junior, and I’m going to be a sophomore. she is loud, obnoxious, and mean spirited…but only to me. i don’t know what i did, in fact i was extremely nice to her, like i listened to her problems and hung out with her and everything, but she hates my guts. she is unnecessarily rude to me and puts me down at literally every opportunity. she is well-liked by everyone else, and i have learned to ignore it, and honestly by itself i honestly don’t give a crap about her or what she thinks of me, except i spend a lot of time in band and she is just there. she is impossible to avoid because she is going to be section leader next year. i know it affects the way others in band treat me just because of how popular she is…..ughhhhhh
and everyone is bipolar and two-faced. like friend (friend? idk about that..) AF. today, she was super nice. she went to me and was like, before i graduate i need to let you know that you don’t know this but you are extremely pretty. nice right? confidence booster? well the other day she said, ‘you are like a stupider version of me when i was a freshman.’ thanks.
whatever haters. check out the link i’ve posted, though. i’ve got it bookmarked now.
and today was great. in spanish, me and friend PS were texting this kid pretending to be a gay guy who was in love with the kid, and then we took a picture of PGF K looking creepy and sent it to him. poor kid is so gullible.
we switched seats in math and instead of working i chatted with the awesome people at my table, PGF J and this tall weird junior and unfortunately the albino kid i hate. plus some of the girls in that class talk to me now after i started forcing myself to be friendly.
so yeah. 9 more days of school! countdown begin!
1st day of track….. yeah. Nuff said. Actually not haha. So I woke up this morning, looked out the morning, and the sky was on the verge of tears. Heavy dark clouds, freezing temps,…..you get the picture. There went my motivation for an outfit, so here came my black dirty hoodie, jeans, and beat upContinue reading “track day numero uno…(2/28)”