where have I been?

You’ve been extremely good, a little lonely, content with your friends, feeling alienated from close friends, feeling alienated from fading friends, feeling like a second-class friend, suddenly ready to cut people out, exceedingly comfortable with the people you love, willing to reach out to people you’ve looked over, unsure if this was out of desperation,Continue reading “where have I been?”

a few profiles for the trip

k– 1: exceedingly like SS in his external, no nonsense, hyper self-assurance and rugged, blunt approach and focus on people. I really can’t describe it. k– 2: generous, gregarious, open, playful, relaxed, content; his lifestyle and self-assuredness in that lifestyle struck me; he was very much a man living outside the expectations of being unhappyContinue reading “a few profiles for the trip”

there are no more moments alone

and when the time comes I hug first JH and then WB, and he walks behind me and wraps his arms and we prove we are still fluid; he lifts me up and backwards with a huge closed-mouth smile and I squeal, laugh, crinkling my eyes as JH looks on; it’s a pact: somehow bothContinue reading “there are no more moments alone”

Transplanted JKm

The awkward airport as I go for the kiss and he goes for the hug. I care for you so, so much, and I want you to be happy. Me on top. Kisses from his forehead, down his nose, on each closed eye, and finally to the lips. Playing with his ear in the car,Continue reading “Transplanted JKm”

iPhone Notes: Snippets from the Plane Ride Home

Fading street lights. Lights being intermittently obscured by buildings, trees. Christmas lights. Why is the city twinkling? Whoa! WhoOOOAAAh… A baby giggles as the plane lands roughly. Atlanta, Georgia. Almost home. The toddler in front of my pops over the seat and peers at me. “Hi!” I giggle. She giggles right on back.

My Pitiful Social Life

…Is on the verge of dying. Let’s go over what I’ve done in the past week, which I’ve had completely off. Friday: Band Christmas party, which was surprisingly fun. Actually, band in general is surprisingly fun, now that *ahem*┬ácertain people are gone, and I don’t care what other┬ácertain people think. Saturday: Went to a volunteerContinue reading “My Pitiful Social Life”

old friends, and bad days (what?)

so break is here, and it’s rolling. you have no idea how freaking relieved i was! all that sleep deprivation and stress was really catching up with me… on saturday, we went to visit friend SJT! yes, the friend SJT from our china summer camp, the one my brother is best friends with. i amContinue reading “old friends, and bad days (what?)”

parents fighting

i woke up this morning to the sound of my dad trying to get my mom to sign some document for our lawyer. and that progressed into a screaming, accusing fight, in which my dad says that she is always harassing him by not signing these documents right. i don’t know, but isn’t it ironicContinue reading “parents fighting”