The mirror asks: how can this be, this bloom that became pity? Stifle, the exhale. This bloom became worry. This bloom became: yield. Willful denial of self, a smidge. Tuck the smile behind the ear and cross the legs. Here: clutches of soil. Thyme. Quiet.
You’ve been extremely good, a little lonely, content with your friends, feeling alienated from close friends, feeling alienated from fading friends, feeling like a second-class friend, suddenly ready to cut people out, exceedingly comfortable with the people you love, willing to reach out to people you’ve looked over, unsure if this was out of desperation,Continue reading “where have I been?”
The awkward airport as I go for the kiss and he goes for the hug. I care for you so, so much, and I want you to be happy. Me on top. Kisses from his forehead, down his nose, on each closed eye, and finally to the lips. Playing with his ear in the car,Continue reading “Transplanted JKm”
Fading street lights. Lights being intermittently obscured by buildings, trees. Christmas lights. Why is the city twinkling? Whoa! WhoOOOAAAh… A baby giggles as the plane lands roughly. Atlanta, Georgia. Almost home. The toddler in front of my pops over the seat and peers at me. “Hi!” I giggle. She giggles right on back.
ok, so friday i hung out with friend TG. we made banana bread, but it tasted disgusting. it was still fun, though. on saturday it was my grandma’s birthday, and i wanted it to be perfect. i got up early and made this amaaaaazing quiche and lasagna! but i was so into it i forgotContinue reading “Winter break 2012 (2013!) continuedddd”
so break is here, and it’s rolling. you have no idea how freaking relieved i was! all that sleep deprivation and stress was really catching up with me… on saturday, we went to visit friend SJT! yes, the friend SJT from our china summer camp, the one my brother is best friends with. i amContinue reading “old friends, and bad days (what?)”
well i kicked off the new year with a super busy schedule. good or bad? on saturday, i was texting my friend JC and we decided to countdown together. so i did stuff until around 7, when i went to her house. right off i could see that it wasn’t really gonna be wild orContinue reading “busy busy new year”
…it was pretty fun. before from piano i went to go shopping with my mom. i bought new PJ pants at gap for like 6 bucks. i don’t enjoy shopping with my mom so much anymore, because she is so set on spending all the money she makes. i am set on saving money soContinue reading “church girls sleepover”
i woke up yesterday, went running, ran about 3 miles, and felt completely discouraged. my time was 18! really, OVER 18 because it had already turned 18, and that means its already hit it….arrrrrg. BUT today, i went running again (i dragged myself out after reading an article on livestrong.com about how everyone has setbacks)Continue reading “Grandma’s Birthday”
so i woke up tuesday morning and went running finally again. my time is still not falling under 18 minutes 2-mile. hey, its uphill ok? but that IS a 9-minute mile (possibly more) which is absolutely awful. after trudging home the loser walk of shame, i jogged back down for another go, lost all motivationContinue reading “bad sleepover”